ta-DAAAAA!!! im back!

Wow! hello! are you there blog? its me! here I am!

So lets start with whats going on... We have a second birthday for Sora coming up in a few days. She is starting to talk and say a few sentences. She can say:

Princess, frog, snuggle, help me, yogurt, apple, toast, tree, walk, excuse me, please, thank you, kitty, minnie mouse (ninny), vitamin (nibbie), juice, milk (mook), eggs, smoothie (snuudie), sad, crying, windy, cold, hot, water, tooth paste (paste), brush, pretty, 'awe cute' cars, race, book, phone, flower, bugs, 'ew, gross', oatmeal, banana (nana), baby, nice, grandpa, monsters (she loves the movie), Simba (Lion King), Ferb (cartoon), Dora (dodo), stinky, socks, shoes, outside, up, down, off, robot (botbot- also does a robot dance), pancake, cupcakes (cay cays), strawberries, cookie, crackers, cheese, bar, truck, frog, tree, more, sticker, cow, cat, dog, purse, mouth, ear, toes, hair, eye, nose, sweater, shirt, pants, bag, Jeremy (from the ferb cartoon), birds, push, auntie, uncle, mike, water....

She can also spell her name, with a little help of course :) She likes to listen to Nicki Minaj, the guy who's album is called "Lasers" Madonna and lovessssss RHIANNA (boo!).

The other day, she grabbed some cars and said "lets race!"

Angelo on the other hand is like a super baby! He grown really fast in a short amount of time! last dr visit he was 15 lbs at TWO months, Sora was 22! He's almost 5 months and I KNOW he probably weighs 17-18lbs, and he is sooooo long! I have him in some 6-12month clothes. He also has already started rolling over and I saw him trying to push up on his knees yesterday! He will not stay a baby for very long. He has great eye-hand coordination and can already start playing with things in his exerciser thing. He is also a very happy smily baby! when he is 6 months we will start feeding him solids

Im doing already. James works alot of overtime and tries to help out as much as he can...he starting to let me sleep in whenever he can...I think he's tired of catching my evil eye and bitchy attitude..hehe but hey 2-3hrs of sleep and no break will do something to someone!

My sister has been super helpful in watching the kids. Its nice to have her help out, shes a great Auntie. She takes Sora to shows and comes back with a funny tale of "I bought her a snowcone...biggest mistake ever, she dumped out the juice, sat down, took off her shoes and started dancing in the water" Her boyfriend is also really helpful and totally totally spoils Sora. Recently her bought her a toy shopping cart which she carted around all over Target...when he went to pay for it, she started crying really bad when we tried to take it away from her, it was embarassing! At home I hid it from her sometimes because she goes CRAZY in it, she tries to stand in it...or sits in it...it came with a million pieces which I didn't let her have because the family room would ALWAYS be a mess..

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Cute things the kids did today

Sora used her potty chair and we flushed her poop in the toilet, she waved and said " night night poo poo" lol!!

Angelo has been starting to follow me with his eyes, he held on to my index fingers and gave me a super big smile, twice! Kind of melted my heart!

Dr check up for Angelo

Angelo had his checkup yesterday, we were interested to see how much weight he gained because he's looking a bit larger, he's just a few ounces under ten pounds! WOW what a fatty! Four pounds in a month! I have another bottomless pit in the family. The nurse measured him at 21 inches, but I don't trust the nurses on his height because of how they measure him, not very effective

Angelo born 10/11/11 9:54 am

I bet James $50 that I'd go into labor during his Monday night Chicago Bears game. I really felt that Angelo would be coming soon, I kept having contractions but they weren't close together and I wasn't in enough pain to call the hospital. 'Researching' online suggested I was in false labor, I let myself believe if I was truly in labor I would know.

I went to bed at 10 with tummy pains which I thought were hunger pains, so I made a few chocolate chip cookies. At 11:50 I woke up to water trickling down my legs! I jumped off the couch and ran into the kitchen (laminate floors easy clean up) and tried to make sense of what was going on, how much time did I have? what do I do? I just stared at the floor thinking I'd made a puddle in the shape of New Jersey and figured I should wake up James

I woke him up, and told him what happened then I called 'labor & delivery' who told me to come in. We grabbed our overnight bag, a pillow, and sleepy Sora. I stopped us because we didn't install the 2nd car seat! Lol! At least it was Sora's old one (we updated the seat cover to a boy pattern instead of buying a brand new one) loaded us all up and drove to Annette's house to drop Sora off. During the drive I was timing them (4 minutes apart) and called my dad to tell him. He said 'good luck' and 'you should fine, but I know what your in for'

By 12:30 we were checked in at the hospital. They needed to test my fluids to make sure it was really my water breaking and not 'pee' accidentally coming out (lol whaaat?). I was dilated 3cm, 80% effaced so they admitted me to a birthing suite since my test came back positive for fluid.

Inside the suite was large, there was a baby heater, a mini crib, tv, bed, private restroom and sleeper sofa. Here I was hooked up to monitors, one for the baby's heartbeat, one for mine, and one for my contractions.

My contractions hurt, but were manageable. They were 4-5 mins apart and lasted 20 seconds. I did the whole 'breathing' thing like you see on tv... It actually works pretty well and kinda makes the pain go away but only cuz you concentrate on getting your breaths correct. The more i concentrated the less pain I felt, but I still felt pain don't get me wrong.

By 5 am I had progressed to 6cm, I was going a lot faster then I was expecting but my contractions were getting closer together. They were 2-3 minutes apart. I wasn't getting a break and chose to get something for the pain. I received  medicine which took the edge off, but made me incredibly drowsy which I really hated because feeling loopy and being in pain is not a comfy combo! But I asked for more anyways. I was then allowed to have an epidural. The anesthesiologist was kinda annoying, she wasn't very descriptive in what she needed me to do and got upset at me for moving but would tell me after I made the mistake. I didn't like her 'read my mind attitude' too much plus I felt her needle hit my spine and felt a 'crunch' ugh blah! I could feel

An hour after the epidural, I was checked again and didn't progress so they gave me pitocin to speed it along. I could see on the monitor the contractions progressively building up. At 8am I was on the phone with the nutrition department ordering food and a nurse came running in saying the baby doesn't like my position and I needed to move ASAP. His heart rate dropped. I told them I felt more fluid rush out, she said he may moved down which made him freak out. I told her last time (with Sora) the staff didn't like the heart rate change they made me push.

They checked my dilation and I was ready to go, (what?! That was fast!!) they made me try a few 'practice' pushes. I swear everyone working showed up and watched! It was annoying, there was an OB and her trainee, their supervisor, pediatrician and her trainee(s), my nurse and her trainee THEN a bunch of RANDOMS who might as well have handed out popcorn cuz they were just standing there!

I really didn't like everyone there and it made me nervous but I tried pushing anyways. The head honcho doctor goes "push with your butt not with your face" lmao. They made me try twice then stopped and everyone went away.  I took it personally like I didn't do a good job.

So pushing on my own is different from pushing from being induced. Induced contractions = auto pilot, your body just does the work. On my own, I had to know or 'feel the urge' to push and on top of that the epidural wasn't working as well as I remembered plus it felt like water balloon fireworks were going off in my uterus. I kept feeling stuff 'pop'

James totally took control and did a good job communicating for me. He said I need one person in charge telling me what to do, I get overwhelmed when too many people start shouting at me at once, which is totally true. And I love him for that!!

My nurse coached me in another set of practice tests and made me stop. I started to feel kinda sad like I wasn't doing a good job, but she said I had to stop because his head was right there! Yay

Everyone came back and james told my nurse she needed to coach me only. Perfect! No one else talked.

I started to push, she counted to ten then we started over. One contraction set down! The next set came and she counted again but this time she said if it feels like I can push longer then do it. I kept going cuz either the drs fingers or the baby's head hurt! I wanted to complain but figured if the baby came out it would be over quickly so I sucked it up and pushed harder then the baby popped out! And then the dr put him on me!!! I didn't want to touch him!! Lol I swear I was asked FIVE times if I wanted him cleaned or to hold him right away. Boo. Lol. I chose 'cleaned'

He was all purple and slimy. I didn't see blood on him ( I didn't want to see my own blood which is the main reason I wanted him cleaned) I wanted to cry like the new moms do on tv, but everyone's eyes were on me!! It was my moment and I had gawkers so I stopped the tears

Everything was over and done with so quickly, by 3 pm I was ready to go home. Too many people were coming and going I just really wanted some peace and quiet or bonding baby time

Sora & my mother in law came by, Sora watched all the doctors run tests on the baby and was curious. She was good in the hospital room mostly because we occupied her with peanut butter and crackers and all the new faces she just HAD to say 'hi' too. Annette took her back to her place and we spent the night and actually slept.

Rosalinda was the best nurse I ever had!! First let me tell you about the hospital. It's a teaching hospital for UC Davis and Sac State (nursing) every dr/nurse seemed to have a medical student attached at the hip, but they also have people knocking on your door trying to grab a drop of blood for testing for some med school project. After a while of a resident or supervisor or on duty such n such asking you the same flipping questions it becomes aggravating. James left to clean up the house and spend time with Sora so I was stuck talking and listening to these people. They wanted us to stay a extra night because they wanted to monitor his weight loss

Our friends from San Jose came to visit us which was super nice because Sac isn't close. It was nice to see them because we miss them and their daughter is super cute and hilarious.


My recovery has been a breeze compared to last time. I was able to walk out of the hospital, my back doesn't kill me, taking care of a newborn is less stressful since we know what we are doing

pumpkin patch!

Sunday we were able to have some family time at the pumpkin patch!

Sora had so much fun! she rode her first pony and kept calling it a 'dog'

7 days left

After tonight, 6 days left. Everyone keeps telling me it's really 'any day now' but I don't believe them. My next Drs appointment is on Wendsday... Im hoping he comes before then so James can stay home with me :(

I had another bloody nose while watching tv :( my 'fake' contractions only seem to happen when I walk... I don't feel the same as when I had Sora, my body is doing much more this time around.

I've given up on my 'no sweets' rule and have been sucking down soda, poppin gummy bears, eating CAKE that James brings home for me this all means I've gained more weight then planned and that makes me even more sad

I've been hearing that other people have squished their babies out, which makes me jealous!

I organized Angelos stuff...newborn diapers are so freaking TINY! I pulled them out if the box and started bawling to james: 'they're so tiny! I don't remember Sora being this tiny!!!' sob sob sob. He just laughed at me and gave me a hug

All of this still doesn't feel real to me, I see the belly, I feel him moving but it's not registering. I hope this year flies by cuz newborns are very demanding and I'm just nervous =\

countdown to Angelo

nose bleeds!!!

Yesterday I had my 1st ever nose bleed!! It was 100+ and I was outside at Aunties house watching Sora swim, I felt my nose drip and just thought I had a runny nose, then it just started bleeding out! GROSS! I panicked! I never EVER had a nose bleed before...Sora's had more of them then me! I've had issued with my nose this whole time, but blood.. ICK. I really can't take the sight of blood, having a baby did that too me. it makes me weak! IM SUPPOSED TO BE TOUGH!

We walked around alittle bit at the mall today, I saw a lady who was going in on Thursday for a C-section...she was HUGE, all I thought was greaaaaaaaat, I have THAT to look forward too. Her belly was huge, her feet were swollen....actually there were a lot of large pregnant ladies waddling around with their husbands and kids...like meeeee....

25 days left

So get the F! Out!! Lol

Had a doctor appointment yesterday, I told him how I was feeling and he checked to see if I was dialated. Just .5-1cm which is really nothing... I think I was 1 cm for a few weeks last time.

So far I've gained 27 pounds, I'm supposed to gain 1/2 a pound each week. So maybe I'll only put on 30 pounds total.... I've been having major sugar cravings. We have mini chocolate peanut butter cups in the freezer... I can have 2-3 mini bites to kill my craving... And a pound of gummy bears we bought at the health food store. Oh and the FIVE pounds of fruit for snacking :)) we go through a lot of fruit in this house! Like last night james made banana cinnamon dessert egg rolls with brown sugar, super DElightful!! This was AFTER he ate more then HALF of the carrot cake he bought me using his ESP. Who does that?? Buys a pregnant girl a slice of cake, then EATS it!!

Sora is still teething, which is wonderful! It's messing with her sleep schedule. But she's trying out more words now! Like 'baby' 'sticker' 'jump' 'oatmeal' 'light' she can show you where her belly, toes, fingers and ears are and can make two 'silly' faces.

She also knocks on the door says 'who's that?' NANA! And throws her arms up.

She's a good baby

I think I am having tiny mini contractions! I've been having cramps all weekend and a low dull back pain, I'm trying not to overthink these pains, i have 5 weeks left til my due date. I am anxious and feel like his birth is looming over me. It's all I think about ALL DAY, I even watch 'A baby story' on TLC in the mornings to mentally prepare me for labor.

I read online I can start feeling the wayi do up to a month before he actually comes... Great... 30 days of cramps sounds like fun

My hands and feet are starting to swell too, so I lay down as much as possible. I can't really eat since Angelo becomes very active when there is food in my belly. He moves around way too much after I eat and it hurts.

Oh well. I'm almost done

Dehydrated!

Yesterday was not a good day for me. It started off Monday night at 10pm I was on the phone with my friend Melssia and Sora was trying to sleep and threw up ALL over the bed. So instead of sleeping I had to wash sheets. 

Tuesday night around 11, I threw up, then again at 5, and again at 7am. James was on his way home and told me to call the dr. I called Labor and delivery. I couldn't explain how I felt and started crying. They told me to come in and they'll check me out

Turns out I was dehydrated which was causing contractions. I started balling because it's too early for the baby to come out. He could have vision or brain problems :( 

My nurse Michelle explained that rehydrating me will stop on the contractions. That made me feel a little better. 

Again if he came we were not ready! 

I needed an IV and the needle she poked me with was like a harpoon, k not that big. But it made me pass out from the pain, she didn't hit a vein after a few tries. I tried not to be a baby and cry, I just saw a funny pattern of stars take over my vision, I could hear them talking, but couldn't respond. 

After a few bags of fluid I felt better. Went to my mother in laws, had a juice box went to sleep and woke up needing to throw up. 

Poor james was probably delirious from the lack if sleep. He got off work and was home at 7am, at the hospital he tried to get some rest (I think listening to the baby's heartbeat monitor helped) he took a long nap at his moms. When we came home I slept and woke up feeling MUCH MUCH better I made soup, but ended up throwing that up. 

James made himself coffee to help regulate his sleep and went to bed at 2am only to wake up at 5am to Sora throwing up. 

*sigh* hopefully we can get it together. She's doing better then me, she's been able to eat no problem, I have a baby in me which I think isn't helping

On the plus side I got to experience what Labor & Delivery will be like at that hospital since I'll be delivering there. All the doctors and nurses were SO friendly and personable, such a big difference then San Jose were 90% of the staff spoke English as a 2nd language. 

We picked up my anti-nausea meds this morning, just took my 1st pill so cross your fingers no more up chucks!

I am giving myself a gold star with a circle around it under the 'mom' category. A typical breakfast I make for Sora is from Quaker oats instant oatmeal. I thought I'd try to make my own oatmeal with milk, brown sugar and fresh fruits.

I bought a pound of oats from the health store ($1.97) organic strawberries ($3) orange bananas ($1.29) white/yellow nectarines ($7) these are mostly for snacking, brown sugar ($2). I think the boxed stuff is $3.99 for ten packets...I think I have enough oats for two weeks.

I tried my first batch, made Sora a huge bowl and she ate a decent portion. I was thrilled because feeding her is like feeding a black hole.

I just feel better that it's 'home made' and I know what's going into her food....it just makes me feel more responsible *gasp*

I should also say last night we tried to shoot whipped cream in her mouth cuz what responsible parent wouldn't do that?

yess!!

its QUIET TIME in our house right now!!!! I AM THE ONLY ONE HERE AND ITS QUIETTT!!

I went to Burger King, ordered THREE YES 3!! burgers, the California whopper (with a paint brush smudge of guacamole wth!!) a coke (wish I got the 'healthy' all American size large) waiting Law & order SVU with the AC on....and no more coke to drink cuz I already finished it DAMN





weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! if I didnt get tired so quickly & my ankles wouldnt swell & I could breathe better in this heat.....id be dancing on a table

Our couch is here! Our free patio chairs are here too! They're quite nice and fancy....I'm impressed. AND our ottoman showed up! We weren't expecting it at all, james ordered it online it said 10-15 days, I swear it was here in three. Thx Costco!

All new furniture! aka all new stuff to climb on in Soras eyes! Omfg. The couch she jumps on, and she has the 'best' balance so shes more of a dangerous distraction while watching tv, but it's cute because she says 'thump' for jump. Ugh and she likes standing on the ottoman. Eesh! We also put up our mirror, some photos and james cleaned all the moving crap

Out of the kids room. So now our place feels like a home and less like a hotel. Ooo and the dinosaur upstairs moved out so I actually got sleep this morning! She'd usually get ready for work at 5am, but james usually wakes me up at 3am when he gets home and my body won't let me go to bed til after 12am.

blah!

im 95% sure this baby has 'dropped'....then I get a email saying Im 8 months pregnant.

crap

this is happening way too fast. I am freaking out. I spent pretty much all day in bed yesterday, I even cried. See...we are not ready for baby Angelo.... ready as in diapers, clothes, breast pump, detergent....place for him to sleep.... sigh..... James says I'm wanting to 'nest' and I can't so I'm overwhelmed. He said this weekend we are going to go gather things to make me feel better. Then I thought about having a baby shower...but the idea of putting it together myself overwhelmed me.

Sora's play room isn't put together and that stresses me out. SO I cried. I cried because I feel like I'm failing. I cried because my back hurts. I cried because the baby took my shampoo to play with and I can't find where she hid it so my hair is really gross and unwashed. I cried because James was supposed to pick up my pre natals and didn't even try and left it on me to call. its too much. (I ended up going this morning with Sora... to 2 CVS's because one didnt stock it and of course I got lost... more frustrations!!)

I also went to the grocery store loaded up on MORE fruits and veggies and not salty snacks...mostly to discourage me from eating a TON which I totally can do, but I did grab 2 boxes of freshly made COOKIES (on sale....it was a sign OK). but did pass on the cinnamon rolls you can bake yourself, like cookies...the chocolate covered mint cookies.....the salty chips....the blueberry muffin mix. (I had to think to myself, if I have these, Sora will want some and the image of her eating a cinnamon roll for breakfast..because I totally would give her one...made me think I'd have to take her to the park...but I can't run after her..but then I'd know there were cinnamon rolls waiting, TORTURING ME in the fridge)

While out on the road, I contemplated having a burger for breakfast....at 9am. I made a promise to myself...no burgers til after the baby.... i SWEAR they bloat me out!

I just want to be lazy!

I just want to lay in bed ALL day!!!

Today I tried to do that, I had Netflix set up on the computer for Sora, snacks, water, etc, and closed the door in the bedroom and tried to rest as much as possible. My back is killing me, I swear the baby moved lowered, I checked online to see how it feels when the baby drops.... I think I should go back and read my baby blog for a refresher.

I may be in panic mode. Last night we realized if the baby came early, we are not prepared! My cousin in Colorado sent her old baby boy clothes which was super nice of her. But anything and everything else we don't have. So this morning I did a registry on Amazon.com. Hopefully if we can get it together these next four weeks I'll feel better. Obviously we had other priorities. Maybe those can now take a back seat...and I'm SO over looking at furniture, especially after this gruling weekend of being outside in 90 degree weather waddling around malls. I'm starting to hate shopping unless it's for Sora. Actually I've been looking at furniture more for her then us... I just want her room to be ready so I can leave her in there with the door closed. ( I'm not joking, k maybe alittle)

another couch update

so........Thursday we get a email from Pottery Barn, it says its a "SHIPPING Confirmation" email.

wow. what the heck.

we didn't believe it...until we got a call from their delivery team.....we are set up for Wednesday. I would be excited....but I not going to believe it until my fat butt is sitting on it. Oh and James right now is watching a Vampire movie, drinking a beer on the FLOOR just blurted out "burrrrrp.... I should be sitting back sitting on my muther fc*king couch right now, aint this a b!tch"  haha

 He took us out to dinner last night, to Scotts Seafood on the River. There is a Scotts Seafood in San Jose. I always thought of it as a dump because its downtown and nothing fancy or 4 star worthy is down there. so needless to say, I had very low expectations going in to our date night, but I wasn't to look like poop! We left the baby with mother in law, valeted the car...and walked in.

Boy was I surprised! It was really nice inside, but not pretentious, well I didn't feel it was even though it was mostly older....older white people....like Housewives of Orange County had a 10 year reunion old...but thats OK because I wore heels. haha. 7 months pregnant... in heels SOWHAT

We were seated and the hostess laughed at me while I struggled to get into my low seat on the patio by the river. I said "dont laugh at me!" She said she wasn't, but she did, lol. I tried to talk to James while we were waiting for our other date buddies to show up, but there was this super uber douche bag who was being really loud and obnoxious! He kept loudly kissing his date and sucking all the saliva out of her mouth.

I ordered Crispy Prawns on a grilled pineapple. WOW heaven on a stick! They were very meaty, and I loved the pineapple...which I kept hacking into with my butter knife....because I'm a savage!

Our obnoxious neighbor had more friends show up, and Mr Douche from San Diego felt he more people to entertain so he became louder! But! finally James's friend shows up with his girlfriend....and I could just feel the "oh crap" tension in the air. See...his friend is a huge/tall black guy, he's a really nice guy, but he could be Kobe Byrants' younger brother. He must have intimidated him in some way cuz I barely heard a peep from him the rest of the night... James says a black man will do that.. lol

I ordered crab legs with mashed potatoes, green beans and carrots. It was sooo yummy and messy. It was great. It was nice to be able to EAT MY DINNER and not have to entertain, or keep the knives away from or fight with my little monster ohh and I could actually TALK to the people we were with! But mostly I was happy I could eat my dinner while it was hot, and not luke warm...it was a mini vacation. lol, because I was able to eat... lol :(

Then I indulged again...cheesecake for dessert! I went to bed happy and woke up in a good mood, I like having date nights with my husband. I feel reconnected and recharged in our relationship to be able to have that experience. We don't get to "date" very often, I realize its important to me so I don't feel like the pregnant nanny! We were good the whole day until we almost got into a fight over directions on how to get to Taco Bell.. wow huh....

Baby #2 counter

Dear Pottery Barn

You effin SUCK!

Our 'dream' couch we've been eyeing since last December, the couch we've always stopped to test out everytime we went to the mall and pretended in our heads that the showroom was our living room and pretended to relax after a hard day..... is on backorder. It's not even a teeny tiny problem... It's a 3rd party problem! The company they use had an issue and now are back logged...even if it gets made (and I don't think it will) it should be here September 5, not August 2 like we were told. Plus there has been no communication of this delay from Pottery Barn

James is pissed. I'm more of a 'what can you do' shoulder shrug person myself... But I'm 7 months pregnant and sitting on the floor hurts my ass, back, lungs etc. Plus it the floor is eye level for Sora, and she likes crawling into my lap and can't get comfortable. So I'm
Not really happy, but don't know what to do. Good thing James is a champion complainer, after 3 phone calls, the last one was 45 minutes long, he got answers, a discount on our 'dream' couch, plus two PATIO chairs & cushions for free (to sit on while we wait) I'm proud of him, but I feel baD because this experience is less then 'dreamy'