I think I am having tiny mini contractions! I've been having cramps all weekend and a low dull back pain, I'm trying not to overthink these pains, i have 5 weeks left til my due date. I am anxious and feel like his birth is looming over me. It's all I think about ALL DAY, I even watch 'A baby story' on TLC in the mornings to mentally prepare me for labor.

I read online I can start feeling the wayi do up to a month before he actually comes... Great... 30 days of cramps sounds like fun

My hands and feet are starting to swell too, so I lay down as much as possible. I can't really eat since Angelo becomes very active when there is food in my belly. He moves around way too much after I eat and it hurts.

Oh well. I'm almost done

Dehydrated!

Yesterday was not a good day for me. It started off Monday night at 10pm I was on the phone with my friend Melssia and Sora was trying to sleep and threw up ALL over the bed. So instead of sleeping I had to wash sheets. 

Tuesday night around 11, I threw up, then again at 5, and again at 7am. James was on his way home and told me to call the dr. I called Labor and delivery. I couldn't explain how I felt and started crying. They told me to come in and they'll check me out

Turns out I was dehydrated which was causing contractions. I started balling because it's too early for the baby to come out. He could have vision or brain problems :( 

My nurse Michelle explained that rehydrating me will stop on the contractions. That made me feel a little better. 

Again if he came we were not ready! 

I needed an IV and the needle she poked me with was like a harpoon, k not that big. But it made me pass out from the pain, she didn't hit a vein after a few tries. I tried not to be a baby and cry, I just saw a funny pattern of stars take over my vision, I could hear them talking, but couldn't respond. 

After a few bags of fluid I felt better. Went to my mother in laws, had a juice box went to sleep and woke up needing to throw up. 

Poor james was probably delirious from the lack if sleep. He got off work and was home at 7am, at the hospital he tried to get some rest (I think listening to the baby's heartbeat monitor helped) he took a long nap at his moms. When we came home I slept and woke up feeling MUCH MUCH better I made soup, but ended up throwing that up. 

James made himself coffee to help regulate his sleep and went to bed at 2am only to wake up at 5am to Sora throwing up. 

*sigh* hopefully we can get it together. She's doing better then me, she's been able to eat no problem, I have a baby in me which I think isn't helping

On the plus side I got to experience what Labor & Delivery will be like at that hospital since I'll be delivering there. All the doctors and nurses were SO friendly and personable, such a big difference then San Jose were 90% of the staff spoke English as a 2nd language. 

We picked up my anti-nausea meds this morning, just took my 1st pill so cross your fingers no more up chucks!

I am giving myself a gold star with a circle around it under the 'mom' category. A typical breakfast I make for Sora is from Quaker oats instant oatmeal. I thought I'd try to make my own oatmeal with milk, brown sugar and fresh fruits.

I bought a pound of oats from the health store ($1.97) organic strawberries ($3) orange bananas ($1.29) white/yellow nectarines ($7) these are mostly for snacking, brown sugar ($2). I think the boxed stuff is $3.99 for ten packets...I think I have enough oats for two weeks.

I tried my first batch, made Sora a huge bowl and she ate a decent portion. I was thrilled because feeding her is like feeding a black hole.

I just feel better that it's 'home made' and I know what's going into her food....it just makes me feel more responsible *gasp*

I should also say last night we tried to shoot whipped cream in her mouth cuz what responsible parent wouldn't do that?

yess!!

its QUIET TIME in our house right now!!!! I AM THE ONLY ONE HERE AND ITS QUIETTT!!

I went to Burger King, ordered THREE YES 3!! burgers, the California whopper (with a paint brush smudge of guacamole wth!!) a coke (wish I got the 'healthy' all American size large) waiting Law & order SVU with the AC on....and no more coke to drink cuz I already finished it DAMN





weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! if I didnt get tired so quickly & my ankles wouldnt swell & I could breathe better in this heat.....id be dancing on a table

Our couch is here! Our free patio chairs are here too! They're quite nice and fancy....I'm impressed. AND our ottoman showed up! We weren't expecting it at all, james ordered it online it said 10-15 days, I swear it was here in three. Thx Costco!

All new furniture! aka all new stuff to climb on in Soras eyes! Omfg. The couch she jumps on, and she has the 'best' balance so shes more of a dangerous distraction while watching tv, but it's cute because she says 'thump' for jump. Ugh and she likes standing on the ottoman. Eesh! We also put up our mirror, some photos and james cleaned all the moving crap

Out of the kids room. So now our place feels like a home and less like a hotel. Ooo and the dinosaur upstairs moved out so I actually got sleep this morning! She'd usually get ready for work at 5am, but james usually wakes me up at 3am when he gets home and my body won't let me go to bed til after 12am.

blah!

im 95% sure this baby has 'dropped'....then I get a email saying Im 8 months pregnant.

crap

this is happening way too fast. I am freaking out. I spent pretty much all day in bed yesterday, I even cried. See...we are not ready for baby Angelo.... ready as in diapers, clothes, breast pump, detergent....place for him to sleep.... sigh..... James says I'm wanting to 'nest' and I can't so I'm overwhelmed. He said this weekend we are going to go gather things to make me feel better. Then I thought about having a baby shower...but the idea of putting it together myself overwhelmed me.

Sora's play room isn't put together and that stresses me out. SO I cried. I cried because I feel like I'm failing. I cried because my back hurts. I cried because the baby took my shampoo to play with and I can't find where she hid it so my hair is really gross and unwashed. I cried because James was supposed to pick up my pre natals and didn't even try and left it on me to call. its too much. (I ended up going this morning with Sora... to 2 CVS's because one didnt stock it and of course I got lost... more frustrations!!)

I also went to the grocery store loaded up on MORE fruits and veggies and not salty snacks...mostly to discourage me from eating a TON which I totally can do, but I did grab 2 boxes of freshly made COOKIES (on sale....it was a sign OK). but did pass on the cinnamon rolls you can bake yourself, like cookies...the chocolate covered mint cookies.....the salty chips....the blueberry muffin mix. (I had to think to myself, if I have these, Sora will want some and the image of her eating a cinnamon roll for breakfast..because I totally would give her one...made me think I'd have to take her to the park...but I can't run after her..but then I'd know there were cinnamon rolls waiting, TORTURING ME in the fridge)

While out on the road, I contemplated having a burger for breakfast....at 9am. I made a promise to myself...no burgers til after the baby.... i SWEAR they bloat me out!

I just want to be lazy!

I just want to lay in bed ALL day!!!

Today I tried to do that, I had Netflix set up on the computer for Sora, snacks, water, etc, and closed the door in the bedroom and tried to rest as much as possible. My back is killing me, I swear the baby moved lowered, I checked online to see how it feels when the baby drops.... I think I should go back and read my baby blog for a refresher.

I may be in panic mode. Last night we realized if the baby came early, we are not prepared! My cousin in Colorado sent her old baby boy clothes which was super nice of her. But anything and everything else we don't have. So this morning I did a registry on Amazon.com. Hopefully if we can get it together these next four weeks I'll feel better. Obviously we had other priorities. Maybe those can now take a back seat...and I'm SO over looking at furniture, especially after this gruling weekend of being outside in 90 degree weather waddling around malls. I'm starting to hate shopping unless it's for Sora. Actually I've been looking at furniture more for her then us... I just want her room to be ready so I can leave her in there with the door closed. ( I'm not joking, k maybe alittle)