trip to see great grandma

We went to our Bachan's house yesterday. She was going to have eye surgery, but the doctor ended up rescheduling it for another time because her eyes were too puffy from a medication she was using, so later in November she'll go in again.

She loved having Sora stop by for a visit, she was so happy and excited to see how big she's grown so shortly. She kept saying how pretty she is, and that she's prettier then me (LOL!) I'm OK with that.

We all took naps, except grandma. I woke up and heard the phone off the hook and the operator talking. I walked over and asked if she needed help. She started talking in Japanese.....and I only understood that a friend was trying to call her on the phone. So I asked, then she said in English that 'Her friend calls and talks alot to her" She was trying to disconnect the phone to avoid her call!! Lol!!! too funny.

After naps, she took us out to dinner at a new sushi place down the street. Everyone in there was watching the World Series. I ordered Sora a bowl of miso soup and she loved it! Grandma was really impressed.

After dinner we said our goodbyes, and I started the long tortured ride home. Sora cried the entire time from Monterey to San Jose. I pulled over twice, once to look for her pacifier which I heard her throw cuz it hit the door. Another time to feed her, which she wasn't having, she just wanted to be held. It was just all too stressful, I started getting chest pains, and Leche kept hopping back and forth over her which made me even more upset. But we made it

new 'words'!

Yesterday Sora started saying "bob" sometimes it sounds like shes saying "Hey Bob"

We also changed the nastiest, most FOUL & STRONG smelling poop diaper. James and I tag teamed it. One held and one wiped. It was just SO strong and pungent...we were like "How can something so CUTE make something so nasty!?"

Feeding her is getting better! If her food is warmed up she's more interested in taking it. Last night we had Pho, I gave her a little broth and noodles to chew on. It kept her interested and more importantly, quiet, during dinner.

Teeth update: I thought she was just cutting one tooth, its actually two! yay! One is coming in more then the other. If she allows you to stick your finger in her mouth you can feel them. Man is it tough on the brain to hear her cry and know its only her teeth. I told her "Its ok that you are crabby and don't feel well, sometimes we are allowed to have our moments" hehe. I was starting to forget how mellow she can be

car keys update: they were in my purse all along. sad.

I'm losing it :(

I've spent all day today looking for my car keys, I'm pretty bummed because on Sunday I lost $20 at the Farmers Market... I don't know why I keep losing stuff....

Yesterday, I went grocery shopping for James's birthday breakfast with Sora. I came home and put her in the family room with my keys (thats how I remember it) and spent almost two hours making breakfast. WHY did it take me so long?! Well, as I started cooking, then she wanted to eat. More cooking, she got super fussy....poop diaper change. More cooking, screaming baby...Grandpa steps in to entertain her. At least shopping was easy...I didn't even make anything fancy....eggs, bacon, sausage and hash browns *sigh*

So back to today. Everyone is eyeing me like a crazy person, making crappy remarks because I can't remember crap and looking everywhere....and the one person who probably knows the most can only say one syllable over and over. I know they think I locked my keys in the car, I know I haven't but I'm not so sure. I've only locked my keys in the car once, I was 16 and a new driver, but never again. My sister has a spare, so I drive to her work, pick it up and come back home. Go out to my car, turn the key and open the door. The alarm goes off. My alarm isn't a rinky-dink alarm, its the Tyrannosaurus Rex of alarms, if you had a pace maker, I'd probably make yours skip and you'd die.

Nope. Keys not inside.


to be cont....

update

UGH! is all I can say about the past couple of weeks. I haven't had a chance to post anything because Sora keeps me extremely busy. She started crawling, it didn't take her too long to figure the coordination factor of crawling. She's babbling 'da-da'. Pulling herself up. Shes climbing up stairs (omg!) she can do the three in the family room, and finds the second set and can do 5 more. I'll let her climb, but I have to be next to her to catch her. She gets into EVERYTHING! she likes playing with cords! We've also started feeding her solids, its going ok. She's not really into it, but will take 3 baby spoonfuls at least. She has her own highchair and sits with us when we have dinner.

She was also teething again. I guess it comes in spurts, the hard part about teething was how uncomfortable she gets. She wakes several times in the middle of the night screaming, once she found my nipple and started to nurse WHILE I was sleeping! That was an odd experience...When she was awake she was in pain and needed a lot of attention. She also had the runs. This week she seems a lot better, she isn't cranky and can play by herself for at least 45 mins.

We went to the dog park with Auntie Stephy, Sora was on my hip, I don't know how she did this but, she 'jumped' off and I caught her by her ankle before she hit the ground! shes dangerous even in my arms!

I'm leaving her with other people now, which is a nice break for me. I got a small 10 hr a week part time job. James watched her one day and my sister and her boyfriend the next day. Its kind of stressful to leave her, I know how difficult she can be, im not so sure how other people will handle it. I came home once to a screaming, red in the face baby. The second time was better. I appreciated the help, I love help!

I think all the stress has finally got to me. I had to learn how to ask for help, something I am not comfortable with doing, but I realize I have to or I will start crying. Raising a baby is very hard work! you have very little time (if any) to yourself, your friends disappear, you don't have a social life, everything is dirty, you develop this additional sense that's tuned into your child. Sometimes at night  when I'm sleeping I think I hear her crying and jump up, turns out Im just dreaming. Yes, I dream about my baby crying. You get into more arguments with your spouse (we never fought before the baby :[ ). Going to grab a Starbucks is more of a hassle then enjoyment because of all the baby gear you have to load into the car. All the responsibility is on you!

I'm reading a new book Touchpoints: Your Child's Emotional and Behavioral Development, Birth to 3 which is a lot more positive then another book which made me depressed (the other book made it seem like being a mother is the most depressing job in the world) I like it so far :)

Kiss!

Sac Trip