update

UGH! is all I can say about the past couple of weeks. I haven't had a chance to post anything because Sora keeps me extremely busy. She started crawling, it didn't take her too long to figure the coordination factor of crawling. She's babbling 'da-da'. Pulling herself up. Shes climbing up stairs (omg!) she can do the three in the family room, and finds the second set and can do 5 more. I'll let her climb, but I have to be next to her to catch her. She gets into EVERYTHING! she likes playing with cords! We've also started feeding her solids, its going ok. She's not really into it, but will take 3 baby spoonfuls at least. She has her own highchair and sits with us when we have dinner.

She was also teething again. I guess it comes in spurts, the hard part about teething was how uncomfortable she gets. She wakes several times in the middle of the night screaming, once she found my nipple and started to nurse WHILE I was sleeping! That was an odd experience...When she was awake she was in pain and needed a lot of attention. She also had the runs. This week she seems a lot better, she isn't cranky and can play by herself for at least 45 mins.

We went to the dog park with Auntie Stephy, Sora was on my hip, I don't know how she did this but, she 'jumped' off and I caught her by her ankle before she hit the ground! shes dangerous even in my arms!

I'm leaving her with other people now, which is a nice break for me. I got a small 10 hr a week part time job. James watched her one day and my sister and her boyfriend the next day. Its kind of stressful to leave her, I know how difficult she can be, im not so sure how other people will handle it. I came home once to a screaming, red in the face baby. The second time was better. I appreciated the help, I love help!

I think all the stress has finally got to me. I had to learn how to ask for help, something I am not comfortable with doing, but I realize I have to or I will start crying. Raising a baby is very hard work! you have very little time (if any) to yourself, your friends disappear, you don't have a social life, everything is dirty, you develop this additional sense that's tuned into your child. Sometimes at night  when I'm sleeping I think I hear her crying and jump up, turns out Im just dreaming. Yes, I dream about my baby crying. You get into more arguments with your spouse (we never fought before the baby :[ ). Going to grab a Starbucks is more of a hassle then enjoyment because of all the baby gear you have to load into the car. All the responsibility is on you!

I'm reading a new book Touchpoints: Your Child's Emotional and Behavioral Development, Birth to 3 which is a lot more positive then another book which made me depressed (the other book made it seem like being a mother is the most depressing job in the world) I like it so far :)