Baby shower tomorrow

My sister and I spent the whole day prepping for tomorrows party. So far I'm really happy with how everythings turned out. I still suck at baking. I just finished the last batch of cookies, hope you like chewy in the middle, burnt around the edges :)))

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Hiroe

I did my ultra sound on my breast this afternoon. O'Conner is SUCH a friendly hospital! So far everyone has been exceedingly nice. I asked for directions and the lady walked, yes walked me, to the radiology room. The lady who checked me in Elizabeth, warm and friendly. She liked my drivers licence photo haha I love my DL photo.

The girl who did my scan, Hiroe, was from Osaka, Japan. Very nice! She asked my due date and explained in Japan there is a holiday called "white" day, it's like Valentines day. Girls give boys candy, if he's interested he'll give her a marshmallow or something white. The holiday is the same as her due date. Aww how cute

In the room she asked if I was cold, I was ok. She offered me a heated blanket left the room so I could change then we started to look at whatever is growing. She kind of spent a while on me. I'd say a good 45 mins. She said my Dr will find out the results by Friday. Then I was done :)

Last Class

Tonight we watched a video on C-sections and postpartum. I'm glad I don't have to watch videos that give me anxiety or stress me out after this class.

I DO NOT want a C-section!!!! You can't lift anything heavier then your baby afterwards for two weeks. Can't walk up stairs. Can't drive. Your insides feel like they'll fall out. PASS. The video shows a simulation of the surgury...WHY.. its not like you can see whats going on under the skin, only the doctors. Even without a real person, it was still graphic and made me sweat..

We did one last breathing excercise, this time we held a handful of ice and practiced breathing. I guess the pain of the cold was supposed to prepare us for contractions. I did find a method to focus. I pictured looking out into a deep blue ocean and in the distance there is a pink whale jumping. (Djairs told me about a baby bathing suit she liked so I looked it up online, navy blue with a pink whale. Its going to help me breathe now)

Finally, we took a tour of the labor floor. I'm kind of happy I'll be delivering at O'Connor. The labor & delievery room looks like a hotel room! I was expecting a medical lab with lots of silver tools. What we saw was a cd player, private shower, wood furniture and a blanket warmer.

The recovery room was- meh! Too small not worth mentioning. The hospital is ultra strict on how many visitors you can have. We only get two and dad counts as one visitor. So if you want to stop by let us know, you can call James or Stephanie. O'Conner also offers FREE valet from 7:30-4 and they don't accept tips. Parking hasn't been difficult whenever we've gone.

While we were waiting in the hall during the tour, a nurse, and dad walked down with a baby in a rolling tray. OMG!! The baby was so tiny and cute and clean (unlike the mess they show in the video) and tightly bundled. I started to tear up because even though you go through alot of crap to get thru labor, the end result seems worth it. But isnt that how real life is? I bet I'm going to smother her with every ounce of love that I have

baby dream

Last night I had another baby dream.

This time I was in the hospital, on the labor table hooked up to every machine. Nurses and doctors were there in the room with their backs turned towards me, I was pushing but no one was paying attention to me. James wasn't there and I needed to push. So I did, I could reach down and feel her head. I kept at it until she came out. I caught her.

When she passed through she didn't cry and no one came to clean her up. She moved but not by much. I asked out loud "Why is no one taking care of me?" I wanted someone to clean out her airways, but they kept missing.

Then I woke up at 12:30 am, stayed up til 3am went back to sleep and I'm now up at 7:30.

not tired

It's almost 3am YAY!!! I liked being able to eat if I was up at this time. I'd eat tater tots. That's just not possible now. It's kinda funny because staying up til 3 am meant something different for me not too long ago.

I saw our doctor today, I have to go every two weeks now. I gained two pounds :) I'm on track again, then I had taco bell for lunch. Hehe.

I had the dr check out a lump in my breast it's pretty big and hurts if touched. I have to get a ultrasound on it. She said it's moveable so it could be something backed up, she didn't seem too concerned so I'm not concerned.

We listened to her heartbeat, her heart was higher up near my chest. The dr said she's breeched, but still has room to move.

I received my H1N1 shot too. I hope It doesn't make me get sick.

This crazy rain has been keeping me up at night I was a walking zombie this morning. This whole week has been pretty rough physically..... I'm looking to invest in a new under eye concealer any brand drag queen tested and approved.

James says the baby is going to "age us." Maybe I'll finally start to look like I'm almost 30 and not 22

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3rd childbirth class

We learned about pain relief and a CHP officer talked to us about car seats.

There are two major options for pain relief, analgesics and epidural. Analgesics last for an hour, hour and a half. Epidural lasts as long as you'd like. The a shot seems to have less risk to the baby and can provide "rest" in between contractions. I like the idea of having some pain help in between my labour hours. With an epidural, you can't feel pain, but you also can't feel yourself pushing your heart rate can drop, labor will slow down, your baby can have an issue breathing
after birth.

I know Im tough and will stick out whatever pain comes my way, but I like the idea of having a shot that takes away the pain for a hour. An epidural seems too extreme for me (now). James and I talked about how we felt about the shots when we got home. We are on the same page with trying the analgesics first. Im going to sit down and write out a game plan, it wont be set in stone but at least its a plan.

The CHP guy was.....uh..... he talked too much and kept saying "At any rate" over and over. Apparently there are two kinds of seats for baby, I did not know this.

Our really cool handout for labor.

I've been good off sweets for the past week and a half. My belly feels different to me, but my back is starting to hurt...my side is killing me way too early in the day. im also kinda sick...booo

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Baby Ticker

2nd Childbirth Class

These classes make everything seem real. Buying baby clothes, looking at baby items, cribs, bottles etc is all the fun stuff. The classes are a kind of rude (because they are so graphic) awakening

This class was about real labor and real childbirth. Wow. Some labors can last 4 hours (like my cousins 1st, 2hrs for her 2nd) some can last 24 hoursor anywhere inbetween (my moms lasted 38 hours)... And looks like a lot of pain is involved. I guess I have to look at it this way, no matter what it's just a few hours out of my life, I'll be around medical professionals in case anything goes wrong, and I have a really great support coach. It's only a few hours of pain but it's not life threatening or on going like cancer

We were given a handout of different positions to help the baby position itself for birth, during the movie & class I wrote on one side items I could see myself needing during my hospital stay: lots of pillows, shampoo, flip flops for the shower etc.... James drew clothes on the pregnant girl. A roller derby outfit with roller skates.

I've been having bad violent dreams lately, three nights in a row. None about baby. The first one had a giant gorilla tying people up and doing mean things to them. The second had dinosaurs attacking and eating people. Last night it was of James but it wasn't James marrying a ex coworker. My brain is just overloaded and I'm anxious. I started reading more books about what to expect in myself in the hospital after shes born, babys first weeks, breastfed vs bottle.

I hate my heartburn!!! I mostly get it at night so my new rule is "no eating after 7-7:30" especially if I'm going to be sitting right after.

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Dear Holidays

Dear Holidays,

Thank you for coming around and providing cookies, cake, rice krispy treats and hot chocolate. For I have gained ten pounds in one month and have reached the weight I'm supposed to weigh two months early.

The Dr said I need to be careful otherwise I'll push out a eight to ten pound kid. That doesn't sound fun or exciting.

James has to walk with me in the mornings now. I carry three pound weights as we stroll the neighborhood.

Ive found sleeping sitting up on the couch helps me get a full nights rest and stops heartburn. One night I woke up choking on stomach acid that was not fun and feels so unhealthy.

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Winter Holiday

I spent this Christmas with James's side in Sacramento. He had to work til Saturday and was going to drive up Sunday. His boss actually let him out early so he could be with his family for the holidays! I thought that was really awesome of him to do that. Early in the week James got out early, came home and surprised me with a Oreo McFlurry! HAHA I had never had a "McFlurry" before. He scared the beejesus outta me, I wasn't expecting him and I was sleeping.

I also left a candle on....it was burning just fine, but when he came in and turned on the light there was tons of smoke....oops. I thought I was still dreaming...my man coming home with McDonalds appears in a cloud of smoke and a huge grin on his face.....

Anyways, back to Xmas. His cousins and mom gifted us pink baby clothes. I was excited. yay baby clothes!

New Years I made fried chicken and fell asleep wayy before the ball dropped.

James and I took a mini day trip out to half moon bay. I couldn't have asked for more perfect weather. We mostly took a walk downtown and had a really delicious lunch at Sam's chowder house. Walked off our meal and headed home.

So overall its been a pretty relaxing holiday. I got to see friends and hang out with family.
Feeling pretty fulfilled at this moment

Childbirth Class #1

last night we went to our first childbirthing class, its 2.5 hours long and meets every Tuesday at O'Conner hospital. Im also signed up for a infant care class (I've never changed a diaper) and a breastfeeding class. Our teacher is pretty nice, she said the last class had 40 people in it. This one is about half the size, yay small class. I like smaller classes.

We wore name tags, discussed and watched a video on the early signs of labor. Which was hilarious because there was a chola in the video, feathered out bangs, gold bling and maroon lipstick.

Found out why I have a pain only on my right side. She sometimes squishes my diapram. We were shown diagrams of how the baby squishes everything inside you, your intestines seem to get squished the most, and thats where my friend heartburn makes its start. Now I really have to eat slower and smaller amounts...and not drinking water while eating helps too.

There are so many body things that go on right before you give birth... to be honest I got alittle dizzy. For example, your body can have 'practice' contractions, or fluids will make its way out etc.... At least I know that now, I didn't before. I just have to keep in mind that these are all the possiblities that may happen, every pregnancy is different.

Our birthing class is the "lamaze" style, so we practiced our breathing, counting and focusing. When contractions start, they dont last very long, maybe 90 seconds at the max, but how often they happen in a hour is the kicker. We sat on the floor on my bright pink hello kitty blanket (haha) propped up some pillows and I laid against James. The teacher said we ( the pregro ladies) were supposed to be comfortable and it doesnt matter how the guys felt. I told James I liked her opinion. LOL. After a few breathing excersices the teacher told our partners to pinch the back of our arm as a 'fake' contraction to teach us how breathing helps us manage the pain. We did get to switch roles.

At the end of the class we laid down with our partner and we both concentrated together, the teacher talked very slowly, softly and zen meditation music played in the background....and then I heard a faint snore like sound. So I broke my meditation...I asked James if fhe was sleeping, no response. So then I nudged him in the stomach and told him he was snoring. I didn't care, I thought it was cute and funny.

I didnt think it was cute and funny when he woke me up last night. I was --><-- this close to actually getting a FULL nights rest. He woke me up because *I* was snoring and it sounded unhealthy. OMG I HAVE A BABY UNDER MY LUNGS. imjustsayin.

pizza = bad bad heartburn

Bad side of my pregnancy: I can no longer eat pizza. The tomato sauce gives me nasty heartburn. I woke up to burping up acid in my throat. Another night I woke up because both my calves were in nasty charliehorses

havent been able to fall asleep without waking up every hour. At least I have this guy to keep me company

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